have you ever had that kind of feeling when you suddenly wanna burst into tears, feeling when you want all your memories disappears from your mind and the worst when you thought about hurting yourself? well i felt that kind of feeling all the time. apa kau ingat best ada perasaan macam ni? seksa tau tak! kau ingat aku senyum, galok galok kat depan orang, aku takde masalah lah? aku selalu nak jaga hati orang. tanak lah orang lain fikir aku ni some sort of bad horrible kind of person. betol sangat apa kata orang yang it's not easy to please everyone. kau buat baik ngan dia pun still kne kutuk still kne left over macam tu. aku penat jadi baik sweet type of person sebab orang takkan appreciate pun aku, penat tau penat. bila aku berubah, kau complain jugak. apa yang kau nak actually haa? aku admit aku jadi hypocrite lately, hypocrite untuk jadi baik, tanak mencarut semua tu. tapi dengan cara kau buat kat aku camni memang jadi penghalang lahh. kau baik tapi perangai tu tolong lah berubah, jangan sampai orang membenci kau. cukup cukup lah kau sendiri yang men-stress-kan diri kau and lepaskan marah kau kat orang lain. serious aku cakap aku boleh pendam and tahan dengan semua ni, tapi jangan sampai suatu hari aku tak tahan and friendship kita over camtu je. aku tahan serious cakap 

halu haluuu and assalamualaikum peeps! there are few more days left before we hit two zero one four right? im excited but also afraid because i will be facing the most important examination which is spm! honestly lah kan i am not even close ready to be spm candidates tapi nak buat camne kan? i cannot freeze  the time and stay sixteen forever~ so life must move on and i seriously have to stay absolutely more focus next year. nak dapat flying colours result bukan dengan cara goyang kaki je kan ? kena lah ada usaha lebih and akhir sekali tawakal je. sebelum ni aku langsung tak yakin dengan diri aku so tahun 2014 ni aku kena, harus, wajib ! ada keyakinan diri hehe. em oklah, sampai kat sini dulu lah ea, kne study wehh 

haha till then byee :)

Assalamualaikum semua ! so today is second of december and still nothing miracle happens to me yet haha

tak lama dah my aunty nak bersalin yay i was really missed hearing baby crying in my granny's house. its has been a quite long time ago haha 

tadi tengah syok syok tengok #PISA (playboy itu suami aku), my phone rings and ada notification daripada facebook. my very long time no see friend which is BULAT a.k.a fatein ameira wrote something on my wall haha and it is quite making me terharu a bit haha. dear bulat, i miss you so so much. you're a great friend that i ever had, you were there for me and i appreciated for all the things you've done to me ;)

em so i wrote what i felt and thought tapi taktau pulak apa yang aku tulis ada unsur motivating haha ape ape pun im so sure ape yang aku tulis ni ada berkaitan sikit dalam hidup sesiapa yang baca. iyelah aku teenager, yang bace pun of courselah teenager kan? pusing tang mana pun mesti berkait punya, for example lah kan heartbroken. even yang tak penah kapel pun rase heartbroken bila tengok crush dia dengan orang lain right ?

so thats it for today and ada quotes ni nak share hihi 

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” 

assalammualaikum and good evening 

today is a very unproductive day i must, mendung and nampak macam nak hujan jerr

ok move on with the title ni 

every humans in the world mesti pernah rase unwanted by their family, friend and all people around them lahh and i  felt that way too. it is maybe you always see the negative  side of equation, maybe you get mad or depressed too easily.

sometimes certain of them unwanted by people because of their behaviour and  certain of them rase unwanted macam tu sebab overthink, depress and etc

in my situation, dulu selalu dikelilingi with friends sebab duduk asrama and now tak sangat with friends, jumpa pun kat sekolah jee. dulu kalau bosan ada kawan nak have fun and all that hostel life stuff. sekarang kalau bosan pun menghadap laptop yang tak berape nak best hm nak text kawan pun macam malas because i am a lazy type of person yang malas nak start text semua  tu. dulu sibuk pasal batch semua, now semua dah ada batch baru and i must say ada yang agak sombong with batch dia yang dulu. seriously that person sebenarnya bukan nak sangat attention tu, diaorg just got the feeling that you guys are not you guys yang dulu. and to be honest, sometime aku pun rase macam tu tapi let it go jelahh sebab we can't force someone to do something kan.

i write for what i think and feel so if its annoyed you,, im sorry

till then, byee

assalamualaikum ppl

harini habis semua flashback memories muncul without  im even expecting it haha

so i have been attached by this quotes saying :

The words that escape a friend's mouth are "I'll be there when you say you need me" but the words that are unheard from a true friend's heart are "I'll be there... whether you say you need me or not."

so this quotes do have so deep meaning aite ? gosh i miss my girls so muchh ! its has been three years we have been sharing things, secrets and even crush haha hm there are so many memories that we all shared that i can't even finish telling it in a day. so i never post about them before and now here is some details about them 

the first one is Anis Farisha. she is now at MRSM Serting. she is a very soft spoken girl. she always admited that she is a "perempuan yang ganas" but deep inside of her, she is a very "gadis yang lemah lembut gitu" haha she is also very shy person. she had a crush on a boy for two years now, it is way too long right ?

Next is Nur Aina Natasya Binti Johari. people used to call her 'bonda' bcs dulu kitaorang had a family tree in our class but spread all over the batch so sampai batch lain tau and melekat lahh gelaran bonda tuu haha she is still studying at MRSM Kuantan. she is very open minded person. sometimes she likes to bully me a lot ! love to share problems with her bcs she would gives me some advise then. i also did forget that i love to tease her bcs she will 'melatah' then hihi

Last but not least is Nurul Asyilah. she has be my roommate for almost two years. selalu jugak la gaduh dengan minah ni tapi that is what making our friendship even stronger sebnrnyaa ! kitaorang always share stories before we sleep haha ugh missing every moment of that time hm she is periang, peramah and sometime gile gile sikit but she likes to cry alot and that is always making me worried about her. she also a very strong person and i don't know what i do without her :')

so that is all a bit details of them. they are my forever best friends. they are who changed my life just by being part of it. they are who makes me laugh until i can't stop. they are who makes me believe that there really is good in the world. they are who convinces me that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for me to open it. 

This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend hold your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.

assalamualaikum ladies and gents,

ntah ada ke tak orang bace blog ni kan? well who cares right hm

so my life is basically pretty much boring as im no longer dating or having a relationship with someone

handphone pun macam takde function dah haha

padahal boleh je kan text with someone else but im too lazy to do so..

kadang kadang sedih jugak bila pikir semua mende ni berlaku, is it my fault ? hm

maybe he just too boring to have as his girlfriend i think, yelahh aku ni jenis yang annoyed people so much and i dont know if my friend like me or not hm biarlahh lantaklaa semua tu

life must go on right lysa ? you just have to stay strong and put a big smile on those pretty face 

here im still standing strong without a person that i loved the most. its hard to forget all of those memories and things we have done. hm i think i will miss you forever